Friday, November 29, 2013

Random


It has been such a rough day for me these couple of days. I can't really know which way to go. My heart was such a mess. And it still is. Until today. I don't know where to start or even know what went wrong. Some nights I can't hold my tears, and some night I just couldn't care less about it anymore. My self-esteem is very low. The feeling is just there. Wherever I go, whatever I do, the feelings of being insecure is just there. Oh Ya Allah :(

It was broken into pieces and I was finding all back the pieces alone. Every morning I will fake a smile and act like things were fine. I pretended like it was okay. Like I was the happiest person in this world. Because I don't have any words to tell whenever they asked "What's wrong?" "Are you okay?". I wish I could just cry, cause a hug from a friend is what I really need right now. But NO, instead, I smile and said everything is fine. I lied to myself.

I believe, the more I pray, the more Allah will make me feel safe. Even if these diseases can't be cured, as long as I have Allah, I will be fine. Isn't? InsyaAllah. Hopefully I can change myself in few years to come. To be a better me for Allah is always with me. Amin :) :)

Duhai hati -- bila cemburu, bila rindu, bila sedih kehilangan sesuatu, ucaplah “Ma Fi Qalbi Ghairullah (Tiada di hati ku melainkan Allah)". 

Allahu.

2 comments:

Afiqah Adzan said...

Yes Allah is always with you .. Dont be sad even its too hard .. Trust Allah :)

fatin adawiah said...

lame xkomen dekat belog zatie..xsgka bukak2 ade update baru..heee rindu pe lg kite bc lah kan..pminat setia katenye..

zatie,sabar ye..
even akak xtahu ape sebenarnye yg tertusuk & terpendal dlm hati sanubari zati,bersabarlah ye sayang, Allah sentiase ade dgn zati..sgt dekat..setiap saat..keep that in mind syg..

kuatkan smgt,tempuhi dgn doa & smgt..senyum selalu (: kan manis tu..hii

kalaulah zati betul2 perlukan seseorang tempat bercerita,dan xtau nak crite pd sape lg,zati boleh whatsapp/wechat akak anytime

sometimes talk wit strangers is working right?

i love u eventhough kite xpenah meet each other..perhaps..someday Allah akan pertemukan kite.amin.

kuatkan hati syg.. =)love u.